Sometimes, it's a little easier to believe.

So, to be honest, I'm a coward.

I used to have my heart set on being a musician, or having something to do with music in my career. And then, what I thought was the real world hit, and everyone told me how "music majors" was really just another label for "future waitresses".

Not that my whole life is about money, but I didn't want to pay off 4 years of school on that.

Then, this weekend, we had our Vespers concert here at Augie and truthfully?

I freaking love music. Especially choral music. It makes me so happy, that if I cried, it would make me cry. I complained about choir, I get pissed when I can't write a gosh darn song, but there is nothing in this world that honestly could be less work for me than going in every day and singing or playing or instructing an amazing piece of music.

Anyway, point is, that along with psychology I think I have to change my major music, and I need to be in a music class at least once a semester. I think it might have a shot at making me pretty happy with where I'm going.

Don't get me wrong, I still love psychology, I love figuring out what makes people happy, what makes them tick, how to help them. In fact, that's another reason I kind of gave up on music. I thought it was self indulgent, and unnecessary, and it didn't provide any service to someone like psychology at least tries to do. 

The more and more I listened this weekend though, the more I realized that this service music provides is like meaning to life. And, geez, I sound super dramatic but it makes it easier to believe in God, even. You have to believe there is something greater out there designing these beautiful things, sights to see and more importantly absolutely gorgeous, eyes-welling up, amazing things to hear.  He even gave us voices to create them. What can explain the use for this other than a God who loves us so much that He wanted to give us all these things to praise Him and to remember that there is something so much more and so much bigger than us out there?

Anyway, I think that anything that makes life just a little more worth living, is something you should probably pursue. 

So hopefully I get the balls to pursue music, every day, for the rest of my life.