So throughout this whole finals thing I think I've been holding up pretty well. Like, although I was completely confined to my day room, studying from whenever I got up until probably about 4 in the morning when I might actually head to bed, I feel kind of good about it. I feel like I've done pretty well on my last three finals, maybe even A worthy, but then...
Tonight happened. (Cue dramatic music)
Haha no, just kidding. I think the combination of not being around people and leaving myself with too much time to think and all of that kind of crap just has absolutely gotten me down. And I now have the fantastic task of studying for my ACS final and not only do I not actually think I can learn anything, I definitely don't think I could learn it in maybe the 8 hours of consciousness I actually have before I have to take this thing.
This daunting task along with being isolated and wishing I could fix things for people I love that I will probably never be able to fix has kind of left me unmotivated, a little sad and quite possibly annoyed with myself, and definitely uncool.
But oh well, I'll get over it. And Christmas is soon and I have NOT DONE ANY SHOPPING. Oh boy. My brooding music tonight is Kings of Leon, specifically "The Runner", which may be a little teeny boppy but I don't give a flying fantasies fruit tree. Favorite line from this song is, "I talk to Jesus, Jesus says I'm ok."
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