There aren't many people in the world you get to experience such excitement for. At least, not for me.
But when you do get excited, when your inner most being is stirred by simply hearing someone's name it is something that is hard to pass up. It is hard to let go of, to be ok with, to move on from. It's hard to believe it'll come again, something in such rare form, and you don't know if lightning can strike twice and who are you to be so arrogant to believe that you deserve such luck?
At least, this is how I think.
I get absolutely terrified of letting people go. Especially those who were important to me. It is half of me being scared that relationships like that will never come again, and half of me really appreciating that those people, in all of their uniqueness and rarity, came into my life to begin with.
But tonight, I was reminded once again of how important it is to move on. I don't know that I can yet, but I know it's something I'll try to do. And something I'll try more often to understand as a natural part of life, not a failure, but an experience, and a necessity.
In any case, these feelings are not all bad. It's good to be reminded now and then that you can in fact still feel them. I feel like the Civil Wars have been matching my mood tonight, so I figured I'd share this with you.
