I don't know what the heck I'm doing..

So, a couple explanations. First of all the title of this blog is from probably one of my most favorite lyrics, written by the band This Is Me Smiling. The line goes "I'm having a party for all of my favorite friends. When nobody shows up, I'll say it was fun and I'll do it again."
I am not entirely sure why, but whenever I hear this line all I can think is "I'd probably do that". Hence the title. Whoever may read this, I hate to break it to you, but you might not, in fact, be my favorite friend. Just the only one who read this blog. But, you probably could be my favorite friend, I'm honestly not that hard to impress.
Anyway the point is, if no one does in fact ever read this, I'll just say it's fun and keep doing it.

Also, the font I choose is because it most resembles my handwriting. My handwriting is chicken scratch. If it annoys me too much, I'll change it, but for now it's nice not to just look at Times New Roman.

The other explanation is the point to this blog, in the first place! I won't lie, I'm following a trend. Several of my friends have set up blogs and at first I didn't understand why anyone would do such a thing but.. here I am. I've been having a lot of sleepless nights lately and with the passing of my grandmother I realized that I waste a lot of time. In fact, instead of starting to write my ten page research paper I'm sitting here setting up a blog. But the worst part about the time I waste is that it's not even time where I'm living. It's not like I'm putting off an assignment to go to a once-in-a-lifetime event, I don't do work because I'm lazy. And I am very stuck, and very much not experiencing much at all. So the idea here, is that this blog will allow me to hold myself accountable to actually start doing things. To stop saying I'm tired, or I'm sick, or just not in the mood but start filling up my days. And maybe I'll go so far one direction that I hardly have any time at all but it has to be better than keeping yourself up at night for no reason. Also, it might be a good idea to actually allow myself to feel things, than to keep them all (sorry for the cliche) "bottled up"

So, I'm blogging. This will either be something I work with or something I stop after 2 days. Oh well.

And this post is in honor of my grandmother, Janet Sorvaag. I wish I had known so much more about her while she was still here, but the things I've learned after only prove what I've known all along. My grandmother was a very special woman. She won't be replaced. This video was made by my dad (the youngest of her 5 children) and played at the memorial service. He uploaded it to youtube for the rest of the family to view when they'd like, and I thought it wouldn't hurt to share it here.